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Wilting rose, petals fall, flower dies...: Saturday, December 6, 2003
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This rose has died, this flower has crumbled.
This heart has sunken and its blood has followed.
I want no more...I dont, I really dont...I dont like being hurt, I dont want it anymore...I just can't handle it.
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K FUCKIN' DOODLE-DoOoOoOe : Sunday, November 30, 2003
Meh, so yeah, whatever.
Roberts here visiting, hopeing to avoid him as best as I can.
Currently have a headache, its soooo much fun. Anyone wanna share it?
Anyway....Dont have much to say, if you wanna read newer shit, your gonna have to check out my dApage, the links somewhere down there at the bottem of the page. Peace babes.
Meh...>.< : Saturday, November 22, 2003
Yeah....I screwed up my internet trying to fix a problem it was haveing, I'm useing my moms computer right now because I cant use mine. It wont connect to the internet AT ALL, so...I wont be updateing or anything for awhile. If anyone REALLY needs me, call me beacause I dont think that I'll be online that often for awhile now.
Nyah....Life is kinda shitty right now...I dont quite...I dont quite know what to do or say...if or when, I probly will...see Robert again...Hes really quite still mad at me, I think...I haven't talked to him in awhile now...So...Yeah...I donno...I just ah...Hope he dosen't blow me off too bad if he visits at school...because he basicly said that he was...so...I donno...see ya'll whenever...bye.
OMG! OOOMMMGGG....DDR! : Tuesday, November 18, 2003
*Skreems* I NEEEEDDD TO GET MY OWN DDR PAD NOW!...I'm usin' the one Alex had let me barrow but I need my own now! I need a metal Pad thats like 200 bucks and a ps2 to make it awesome! X3
I'm hooked now...lol
Hes pulled meh into the DDR Circle of life....and its great X3/=3
Wooooo....Listening to Dub I Dub (Raido Mix) I need more DDR Music o.o
Yeeeeeeeeeeee! God, I'm still all hyper'n shit! ITS GREAT X3
I'm gonna try to get pretty good at it, I wont be as good as Alex for like...a year or two lol
But hey, its fun and its got me up movein' around! Sooo...Yeah, I'm happy =3
Yeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh....Ahhhh...I donno....X3
LOVE ME!!!!!....WHY!?...I donno!...lol :heart: ya'll :lick:
Fwe...Ahhh...I'm gonna try to get that DDR game for the computer now, that ah...thats it called...StepMania thinger, Heres the http://www.stepmania.com/ if anyone else wants it and heres a www.bemanistyle.com where ya can get music for it =3
Whao...: Saturday, November 15, 2003
First off...EW!...I CANT BELIVE I DID THAT, GROSS! X3
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Dont ask...Well, I dont tell anyway, just had to say that lol
Anyway, its not tha big of a deal.
Soooo, yeah, um...Not too much is new, I know I haven't really added anything to this new site but I've been busy with other things that needed to be attened to.
Oh god....I had the worse dream last night that diped into the early morning of today...I hated it...I'd also like to know what it means...
I was sitting in a movie theator wacthing some movie with Alex to my left, he'd fallen asleep. To my right, Robert appers and sits there with me, puts his arm around me and acts like its the "good'ole days". I'm just kinda not really all there for some odd reason and move a hand to each of their crotchs...WHY?! I HAVE NOOOOOO IDEA...I dont think I wanna know...I've never liked tuching anyones penius before...eh...still dont too much.
Anyway, I start to rub their dicks right? Roberts enjoying it and Alex is still asleep but responding none the less. Robert smiles and says...I cant remember what he said word for word but it was something like..."I cant wait to have you help me out with this" or something like that. I got up and moved away kinda mad, Alex wakes up and starts talking with Robbie. Robbie tells Alex what I was doing and Alex tells Robert that I had said that I no longer loved Robert but Alex himself...I've grown close to Alex and yes I did say that once but it was a mistake and I've said sorry for that, Not that it couldn't happen...But it was wrong to say something you dont mean. We were makeing out this one time and it had brought up some old memories from Robert...
Anyway, Alex comes over to me and says something and leaves. I cry, he comes back a few minutes later and tells me that if I didn't understand he ment that it was over. I let tears fall down my cheeks and reached out to him, pleading him to let me talk to him. He stayed, he listened. He forgave.
Yeah...Robert just sat and stayed angry with me. Other people showed up, we were quite loud so most of the people who were wacthing the movie had left. The newer people I knew for some odd reason came with brownies or some kinda cookies. One of the friends I actually know from school, Britteny who had stuffed some Hash into the mix...yeeaaaahhh...
Well...I have no fucking clue as to whats up with that dream.
Lets see...In other news,Things to Do this Week end:
#1. Buy some nice shirts. I need some new more girly-ISH, ISH mind you, shirts.
#2. Draw Crystal an ID cause she asked me to and I will cause I probly wont be doing much else this weekend.
#3. Hang out with Alex. If he can, hes alittle busy with projects for school but I'm hopeing we can =3
#4. Hopefully, pick up a few dvds. It'd be nice to have some new ones.
#5. Ahhh....I donno what....lol
Sooooooooooooooooooooo.....Yeah, I donno..I'm kinda tired right now, a little bored too. I donno why but I've kinda been in a fairy kick. Been drawin' them lately....donno why...
Kiss from a rose, kfar : Monday, November 10, 2003
nothin' to post quite yet....
